This is Mafia saying he wants to be a good cat, he promises…
I have hit a (hopefully passing) phase that can best be described as Down time? Do nothing! I'm serious...the dog needs grooming BADLY, the laundry needs done, the art supplies I bought (and the accompanying book on how to learn to draw portaits) gathers dust on my overcrowded desk. Little items of business, like car registrations and mail-in surveys that I want to fill out mock me from the same dusty desk.
What is this paralysis? I don't exercise evn though we have had decent weather lately and a treadmill upstairs...
So what DO I do in my down time you may ask? I watch tivo and get caught up with The Bachelorette, Dancing with the Stars, (which the season has been over for a month now and I'm just now watching the ending), and surfing the internet. I am obsessed with the state of our economy and the certainty of a bleak future. I can't really talk myself out of this one...just too scary.
I go to costco and buy another couple of cases of canned food, trying to figure out how many black beans we would eat in a year, and how long a bag of pancake mix can last on the shelf. I haven't really even BEGUN to get the stuff I want stored. I don't have the room, for one thing.
I spend some time getting things ready for our cabin projects, which makes me feel like I am accomplishing something. Big tile job coming up over the Fourth of July week, so I bought all the supplies for that and will spend about ten days up there. I also want to take my art supplies with me and MAYBE draw a little...no promises!
I am working a lot (but no more than anyone else). I really am getting into a groove at work and feel good about how things are going. I'm a couple years into this profession and am starting to see where a couple more years will really solidify my skills. When I first started, I felt like the onion just had TOO many layers. But now that I have peeled a few of them off, I am gaining confidence that mastery will be within reach eventually.
My whole point of this post, I guess, is to just get something down on screen so I can look back on this time of my life at a later date and say...wow, what a weird funk I was in!
I have hit a (hopefully passing) phase that can best be described as Down time? Do nothing! I'm serious...the dog needs grooming BADLY, the laundry needs done, the art supplies I bought (and the accompanying book on how to learn to draw portaits) gathers dust on my overcrowded desk. Little items of business, like car registrations and mail-in surveys that I want to fill out mock me from the same dusty desk.
What is this paralysis? I don't exercise evn though we have had decent weather lately and a treadmill upstairs...
So what DO I do in my down time you may ask? I watch tivo and get caught up with The Bachelorette, Dancing with the Stars, (which the season has been over for a month now and I'm just now watching the ending), and surfing the internet. I am obsessed with the state of our economy and the certainty of a bleak future. I can't really talk myself out of this one...just too scary.
I go to costco and buy another couple of cases of canned food, trying to figure out how many black beans we would eat in a year, and how long a bag of pancake mix can last on the shelf. I haven't really even BEGUN to get the stuff I want stored. I don't have the room, for one thing.
I spend some time getting things ready for our cabin projects, which makes me feel like I am accomplishing something. Big tile job coming up over the Fourth of July week, so I bought all the supplies for that and will spend about ten days up there. I also want to take my art supplies with me and MAYBE draw a little...no promises!
I am working a lot (but no more than anyone else). I really am getting into a groove at work and feel good about how things are going. I'm a couple years into this profession and am starting to see where a couple more years will really solidify my skills. When I first started, I felt like the onion just had TOO many layers. But now that I have peeled a few of them off, I am gaining confidence that mastery will be within reach eventually.
My whole point of this post, I guess, is to just get something down on screen so I can look back on this time of my life at a later date and say...wow, what a weird funk I was in!
3 comments:
I understand the funk you're in. I have lots to do, but no motivation! But having Malcom around on weekends helps--I feel like I have to utilize every minute with him, including a list of honey-dos every Saturday. It helps a little with my PILES of crap!
I hope your funk passes! Sounds totally normal, though, don't beat yourself up too much. I kinda like having a few projects up in the air at any given time. When I feel like I need to make progress, I try to multi-task. For example, I sit down in front of Dancing w/ the Stars WITH my stack of bills and surveys. Fill it all out during the judges commentary and/or commercials (no fast-forwarding!) Or... I will bribe myself like a little kid. "You can only watch Bachelorette after all those black beans are put away!" Hahahaha, it actually kinda works! If I need my house clean, I will invite someone over, so I have a definite deadline to get it looking good. All we need is the right motivation, huh? :)
Haha. Mom, I was JUST thinking the same thing about myself. Lazy. Bones. I have been so exhausted from bouncing around on vacations and working, that when I am actually at home I don't want to do ANYTHING. Nothing. I just want to chill, and ya know what? I don't think there's anything wrong with that :-)
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